The
challenge with FMS is not only that each individual patient is different but
also the suite of symptoms themselves continuously change, with pain, fatigue,
IBS, fogginess, hypersensitivity etc... being more prominent at one time of
another. As well FMS causes unpredictable reactions to medication that can
obfuscate a diagnosis; the same is true when a medication that had been
reliable for some time, suddenly stops working and new side effects appear. So
each individual case is not only unique, but also extremely complex.
In his 1942 essay The Myth of Sisyphus, Albert Camus saw Sisyphus as personifying the absurdity of human life. My experience of coming to terms with chronic illness is akin to the labour of Sisyphus.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
What fun things are just too hard now?
I
miss going out, seeing a concert and meeting friends in bars. I miss having the
energy to live a fulfilling, social and active life, and being able to pursue a
career. Because of FMS I can only work part time in a routine job; by the end
of the day there is no juice left in the tank to pursue any of my creative
interests. My life is smaller now; I have become more introverted and spend
much time alone. Mostly I feel frustrated and unproductive and I loathe not
having the energy to go out for a run, cycle to work, or pursue any kind of
physical activity!
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